Recently someone sent one of the companies who share my blog post a nasty message. It stated that calling me "The Plush Pin-up" is derogatory. I decided to clarify, they were not calling me the plush pin-up, that is the name of my blog.
The term "plush" comes from plush fabric that is softer than velvet and used on many stuffed animals. When used as an adjective, it means soft and luxurious. The reason I call myself the "plush" pin-up is because I am larger than the average fashion blogger. I am a "plus-sized" woman. The term was directed towards myself. I had no intention of insulting anyone. I believe that a woman should love herself at any size. However, I didn't always believe this.
This is me a few years ago at my heaviest weight. I had no self-esteem and was 38lbs. heavier than I am now. I had tried hundreds of different diets in my life and due to my yo-yo dieting continuously binged after each failure. I hated myself.
I drank only protein shakes 2 days before this photo and actually gained weight.
Finally, I got sick of dieting, sick of going to the gym for 4 hours, 3 days a week. I basically said "F*** it."
Oddly enough, that is when the pounds started to fall off. I ate what I wanted and felt no shame when I ate some thing that wasn't "diet food." Because I never felt deprived I didn't binge. I then discovered a pill called alli (also known as orlistat) that helped me even further because it blocks 25% of the fat you eat. (Don't take any medication with out the approval of your doctor.)
This was when the realization hit me, "Life is about enjoyment not your dress size."
This is why I have a plus size blog. I know how hard it is to be larger than most and how it feels to be overlooked. I know what it feels like to have to shop in special stores because the majority of stores don't carry your size. Being plus sized isn't easy, but it is not something you should be ashamed of.
When I realized this, I gained confidence and no longer felt overlooked. I made more friends in school and became a happier individual.
Learn to love yourself at any size.
Sincerely,
The Proud to be "Plush" Pin-up